Weeeee! I just edited my blog layout in 30 minutes! That was fast LOL!
Usually i take the whole day to revamp my blog but this was a really simple one! Go look!
I might start blogging again…I didn’t want to blog because my previous layout was boring and too complicated. Now, it looks so green (yey! I love green tea?) and neat so I just might :D
What do you think of it?
Most of the time, people try to teach me about life.
I pretend to listen and agree with it. But to tell the truth, most of the times, I do not agree with it.
I only agree with what my mum says because only she knows me the best. The rest are just seeing what I want them to see but in front of my mum, I can be the real person I wanna be and she will never hate on me for that because she knows I’m just…me.
Mums are awesome.
On the way back to my hostel while sitting in the taxi, I thought a lot about…stuff.
There are so many things that have happened and changed these past weeks. It’s not exactly the best change nor is it that bad…
We must adapt to change and change is sometimes really…really difficult. I met a lot of new people three months ago and they were wonderful people.
Not saying they aren’t wonderful now but once you get to know a little more about them - their personalities might not suit yours as well as before. People who just know one another are always friendly and polite but once you get beyond the “Hey we are friends” point, you start to treat them like how you treat your siblings. You get rough, the politeness is all gone..
And people might not like you for that.
That’s okay.
So many people leaving…friendship starts to fade…people leave…back to strangers..
That’s really part of life. I feel disappointed about it once in a while but I try to straighten myself up and tell myself, “Hey, it’s okay because - that’s going to happen. That is going to happen each time and i have to get used to it” and you know what? I think I might have gotten used to it. People really do leave.
It’s okay. There will always be someone new to know. And that someone new might just be that amazing friend you will have for life! :D
I hate it when I say “Fuck you” to someone and they’re like “No thanks”
Well, my fuck you means “GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU PIECE OF FUCKER”, okay?
Hmm. Yeah, I guess I would say the same if I were you.
It has been in my make-up purse for so long. The only reason I kept it was because i thought there was a small chance I could start a conversation with it.
But it’s been there for too long and the more I look at it, the more i hated it. I hated it because of the things it reminded me of so I guess it’s better I throw it away. :)
And I did. I wish to throw it farrrrrrrr away from me but I’m worried I will get fine for littering lol. So I threw it into the dustbin while saying “Fuck you.”
Yeah. Fuck you.
It’s ridiculous how my perspective have changed these few days.
I think my mum’s lecture helped a lot. She gave me a loooooong lecture about life over the phone and that got me thinking - a lot. My mum is often so happy about those things in her life and she loves bragging about it to me.
She says she’s happy that she has three wonderful kids - which is a lie by the way. We are not wonderful at all. We make her mad and sad at the same time but somehow, my mum can transform all those sad stuff into happy stuff! She learned to be grateful for what she has and push away all the negativities she has!
I’m gonna learn from my awesome ma.
And I am so happy these few days it’s ridiculous. Is being too happy a crime?
Cause I would be in jail right now. Ok, lame.
Anyways!
- My lecturer approved at least a quarter of my design
- I understand electronic publishing a little…well just a little but it’s better than before :D
- My lecturer approved my web design!
Yes, they are all assignments based but doing my assignments and doing it right makes me very very happy!
And oh, I ate a yummy burger.
Life is soooooooo good. heheh! :D
I fucked up the final for my storyboarding. T_T Something’s wrong with my binding. On a positive side, my lecturer said he will not cut off my marks (yey!) and would let me redo my binding. :D
BOOOOOOO so I bought the “The secret” yesterday and started reading it today. It really made things a little clearer and made me think a little more….smart. So I repeated this sentence - “Think happy thoughts” all the way back to my hostel room hoping I would indeed be happy.
It’s a little hard considered that I’m still feeling down but it’s ok! Happy thoughts all the way!
But fuck, even though I’m happy, everyone around me seems to be in such a bitchy mood lately. Shop owners, rude department workers…oh god. Our school fees are part of your salary too, bro.
So, in the end, I couldn’t stand it.
I went and bought macaroons.
Best decision. Ever. :D
I seriously wanna punch you so bad. I wanna give you a couple of fists. I wanna punch you till I feel better.
I need to punch you.
I am so angry.
You played with my heart like it’s nothing at all? Do you know how sensitive I am?
I don’t know who to blame. I was this close to getting over it. But, you…you…you just had to tell me about that.
Don’t you think life would be a lot easier for both of us if you didn’t say anything at all? Sometimes, I don’ t know if I should blame you - for telling me. Me - for being so gullible and wanting to know the truth. Or YOU - for actually believing that it might happen. But it did not.
And now, I’m the one hanging onto something that is never, ever, ever gonna happen. And you. You’re free like a bird moving on to your next target.
I know i tell myself that “Happiness is a choice” but no, not this time. It’s not a choice anymore. It’s natural.
I don’t ever want to see you again. For real this time. For real…
Ouch. Seriously, just ouch.
But then you see something and you start remembering
What am I doing…?
I have so much assignments to do yet, i spend my quality time reblogging stuff…that reminds me of you.
You know how funny it is?
How I love to just sit down and do absolutely nothing when you’re right beside me. Just the thought of sitting down without saying anything and not talking at all. Even if it is awkward. I enjoy it.
Really, really enjoy it.
It may be awkward but I really really love it.
